Lyrics

Self Soother

You knew it when you said I couldn’t do it (your perfect stab)
I’d have to prove it, you were cruel to use it (against me like that)
To make yourself feel a bit little safer
Hating someone else looked better on paper
You were always the winner and I could be more grateful

Only lense you could see through
Was one that reflects you
And if there wasn’t applause
It wasn’t enough

So I became a self soother, self remover
Desperately addicted to your approval
Eyes filling up, looking at you
Your eyes tell me what they always do
No one’s coming and nobody likes a loser
Better quit wanting, stay running, such a professional self soother

You couldn’t help it when you stole my thunder, (my whole damn storm)
You needed credit like you needed water (turned mine to yours)
Learned real fast that I couldn’t trust
Anything you said if you said the word us
Counted gold stars cause I couldn’t count on you

So I became a self soother, self remover
Desperately addicted to your approval
Eyes filling up, looking at you
Your eyes tell me what they always do
No one’s coming and nobody likes a loser
Better quit wanting, stay running, such a professional self soother

And all the therapy
It made me see
Who I am, who I want to be
You can’t take that from me
So why I still feel so lonely

Self soother
Addicted to your approval
Eyes fill up looking at you
Your eyes still tell me what they always do
No one ever came but you were never a loser
I hate the way, you stay in pain, the original self soother